I'm so bored today. Mainly I've been sitting in the LRC, spending my time leisurely, doing whatever I want. I do not have any homework (I have tests on Wednesday) and I did not slate any particular event to fill my time up. While doing whatever I want is kind of relaxing, I would like to spend this spare time doing something productive. It just feels... so wasteful. Oh well. I need some time to sit back and reflect, i suppose. Maybe I should go meditate, or plan my near future for a little bit.
I'm so derailed physically. I haven't been exercising very much anymore, partially because Planet health is dissolving and partially because the tendon in my right hand is strained. I must've overdone it, pulling carts at work, because boy-does-it-hurt. I place of exercise, i've instituted a very poor diet (though delicious). I have been eating a lot of sour cream (whole fat -- when i was exercising i needed the nutrients), have been known to eat an entire bar of cream cheese in one sitting, and have been munching on cookies. What a diet. At least my body frame isn't showing anything.
So maybe this is the end, and i'm on to a transitioning phase? Ever since school started, one project after another has been sidelined, and now there aren't really any extracurricular projects at all, save for Friday midnight matinee night, and the weekly-scheduled sensei movie marathon...
Maybe it's time to start over, get a fresh new look on activities I would like to keep doing while finding new activities to replace the activities I don't really care about anymore.
I feel like I'm coasting in life right now, just like in November. I don't really remember what happened in November (or October for that matter). Where is my time going? I've noticed that the past year has flown by much faster than all of my other years. Everything seems so fuzzy and distorted. $h17, thinking about it, 10 years ago seems like yesterday. I try each and every day to learn something new, become a little bit better, but it feels like i've been so focused on that that time has been slipping me. But, at the same time it has not been slipping me. I know lots of details of the past 10 years for me, moreso than most people I know.
What are my alternatives, anyhow? I could always go sit in a chair and do nothing. I guess it's time for me to go lay out a new plan to follow until school gets out
Look you have no arms left!
Yes I have!
Look!
It's just a flesh wound.
D.
Monday, February 9
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