Link... He Come to Town...

Hmm...

So, my life has been spinning out of control lately, and I've been loving every minute of it. Though, as much as I love it, it annoys me. I cannot get done the things I want to do!

I can't seem to squeeze the exercise that I want into my schedule, this doesn't alarm me much since I push carts 8 hours a day (and what with the rain that's been pounding the coast... I might get sick if i overdo it, like I have in the past) but I miss having that powerful, enjoyable natural high.

That and exercise helps me to be more structured in planning my schedule.

I can't get my photoshop crap done; Nor am I doing well in japanese. Every time I have private lessons I find the teacher is getting closer and closer to reaching the point of studying that I'm at (I try to memorize the words of future chapters so I'm ready when class rolls around) But, what's more, I am getting rather behind in my kanji!

Argh!

However, with the inability to get done what I want to get done comes the completion of other, cool stuff. Cooking, money making, and all sorts of other, nonstandard learning (taking apart a T.V., messing with the credenza, macintosh reacquaintances)are things that I value learning.

Ergh, I'm using such large worded technobabble to explain such simple stuff! But that's probably because I'm still kind of frazzled from my interview.

I found out that the receptionist job is pretty much as good as mine when I went in for the interview today. In fact, this interview was the least stressful of any interview that I've ever had -- not that it wasn't stressful, but I felt relaxed and comfortable. I also found out that the lady I would be working under works hard to increase the benefits of her employees. Although the pay is less in the morning hours, I will be making more than I do now in the afternoon and a whole bunch at night.
What's more, I will have better vacation/sick time (better than WinCo's, which is 1 holiday vacation/year and 1 week off/year, with sick days off having a point system whereby a tardy (late 3 minutes or more) is 1 point and a sick day is 3 points AND if you accumulate 15 points, you're fired.)

This job will be much better than my cart plight of rotting flesh and bone. I know so many people that hate their job at the store now... It's just appalling. It never used to be this way. What's more, the manager keeps overworking himself (probably for the bonuses he gets if he makes a certain amount) and he looks so... tired. He's a very cranky person that I hate being around, but I'm always very nice to him and I can tell that he likes me.

Anyway, this may seem out of the blue, but I had a whole bunch of crap to write about while I had lots of idle time working yesterday, such as closeness in love and sharing, how the majority of people don't interact with me (at least at my workplace) and so I'm not really at a loss to just go talk to them, how nothing matters in the end, and how I've discovered my loneliness through talking with others.

But!

I'm not in the mood to talk about them right now. I need to go fix the house up.

Oh, and about my schedule structuring problem: maybe I should just wake up early in the morning. I find my plans usually succeed better when I wake up early and get doing my routines, and it seems like I have plenty of time with no commitments having to be made at 5:45 in the morning.

Freeze, Motherstickers! This is a fuck-up!
D.